the empty bottles
broken dishes
stained floor -
all remnants
of my shipwreck

the monument
to my derailment

the life i ignored
as i pursued the elusive

rolling my eyes deep in my skull
reaching back
to discover the wires
behind my head

i dared to tug at the tender lines --
a rainbow of plastic thread
wound round my brainstem
like a massive root

my eyes swell with dread

only pain
will release this cancer
w o r d s.